I was halfway through 'Get Lucky' by Daft Punk when the uber-positive endorphins hit (having already played 'What Now' by Rhianna, 'Wrecking Ball' by Miley Cyrus and 'Moves Like Jagger' by Maroon 5 - yes I am an unashamed fan of cheesy pop music!!!).
Suddenly I got this hugely positive uplift in my thoughts. My hips were shaking, my arms were waving in the air, my 2-year-old nephew was dancing around with me, the music was loud and I was hit with a wave of happiness…
And my thoughts went something like this…"Why am I worrying about silly not-drinking dreams! It's fab being sober! I love my sober life! I love not being a miserable boozer any more! We're up all night to Get Luckyyyyyyyy!!!!!"
Maybe it was wonderful Paul's comment on my last post "you're living the real dream - being sober!"… or the perceptive eedoubleu from the NoMoreSally blog who seemed to have me completely nailed and said "sometimes even the most optimistic among us need a little cry". Actually it could have been any one of the lovely, kind, wise, thoughtful comments I got on the last post (I've said it before and I'll say it again I really really really really love and appreciate all your feedback.. you guys really do help me).. anyway, whatever the reason I felt great once again.
And lets be clear… even when I am having woe-is-me dreams or a little cry at my kitchen table I am never anywhere near actually considering drinking alcohol. I don't do that any more. And anyway, alcohol does not have magical properties.
Alcohol does, however, have brain numbing properties, and we humans seem to enjoy a bit of brain numbing every now and then because lets face it, sometimes being a human can be hard. But I choose to live raw nowadays, and not blur the edges of my mind like I used to.
I choose raw.
Love, Mrs D xxx
Thanks for the shout out, Mrs. D! This community of sober bloggers really is a "community" - an impressive band of comrades looking out for each other in a very distinct and powerful way. So, so glad to have found you and it. Wrapping up Day 55 here and I Am Wide Awake. (Pop Song reference just for you!)
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You're so good at being sober, Mrs D. You are constantly showing us how to rock it. Plus, if that dream meant you should drink then I have some serious explaining to do based on some of my crazy dreams. Ha! xx- Jen
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ReplyDeleteI emailed you recently. I'm just starting this journey. God it's hard, but your blog really gives me inspiration. It's so good to see someone so happy with their decision.
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Hooray for cheesy pop dancing happiness! I'm super glad you're feeling better. xo
ReplyDeleteYou indeed are living the dream! Keep going
ReplyDeleteMaybe you'll start a new trend Mrs D! Move over the raw food diet and make way for the raw but incredibly happy non boozing diet :) PS I LOVE Daft Punk too ;)
ReplyDeleteSobriety doesn't mean life doesn't still have its ups and downs, but it helps even out the downs and appreciating the ups! So glad to hear your riding the wave!
ReplyDeleteDon't let anyone steal your happy...including a dumbass drinking dream. You rock!
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You're also dancing with little ones! Those intermittent cravings and nostalgias have deep tentacles into the unconscious but lessen their hold year by year
ReplyDeleteYay! I am so glad you've gotten past that. Silly dreams. Nothing more than random deritus of the mind really.
ReplyDeleteAnd I keep meaning to say thank you for your lovely comment on my blog recently. I didn't reply yet, because I've been slack and avoidant lately (post to come) but it really touched me nonetheless.
You rock!
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I really appreciate your blog. I just read through your first month, and I love it! I need all the encouragement I can get right now. So many failed attempts. On day 3- don't know how many times I've been here! But I can do this :)
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