I don't want stupid alcohol anywhere in my body, my mind or my life.
It has no place in my world.
Shit will come and bad things will happen and happy things too and all manner of stuff and I choose to deal with it all without drinking something that affects how I think and feel.
I want to think and feel in a way that I can always trust is authentic.
Alcohol just gets in the way of that authenticity.
And that's why I choose not to drink today or ever again in my life.
The amazing thing is that this wasn't my objective when I first gave up. I didn't know how negatively alcohol was impacting on my thoughts and feelings as I moved around in the world.
I just thought I had to take it away because I couldn't control how much I consumed. Only after it was gone did I discover what an impact it had been having on my emotional landscape FOR YEARS.
Sometimes I feel like it's a blessing that I was pounding it so hard I had to stop.. because only by stopping did I discover what a huge obstacle it was to my living an authentic life.
And now that obstacle is gone - hooray!
And now if you'll excuse me I have to go run the bath, the boys are covered in mud and it's time to settle in, get jammies on and get cosy.
Love, Mrs D xxx