You know in New Zealand we say 'mum' not 'mom'. That's just a little factoid for you.
Anyway I got asked to submit a post to the Sober Mommies website which was really lovely of them .. you can read what I wrote here..
It was a good exercise actually.. trying to neatly summarize the last days of my drinking, my decision to quit and the support I found through this blog. I managed to get a lot into the required word count.
When you write about something a lot (as I am with my drinking and sobriety) you get quite good at summarizing bloody intense stuff… but sometimes I worry that I'm making everything I've gone through sound easy-breezy.
I can tell you it wasn't fucking easy-breezy to get myself out of the boozy hell-hole I was in and I will NEVER take for granted what I did and where I am today.
Sometimes I get angsty or have woe-is-me thoughts or get stressed because the kids are doing my head in or the wi-fi is dodgy again or I'm pissed off I ate too many chocolate biscuits or, or, or…
Life stuff happens.. and I have moods that take me up and down..
But the sober me compared to the boozy me is way more happier, healthier, more authentic and calmer.
Right now its 5.25pm and I've got a carrot cake in the oven, Rhianna is wailing at me over the kitchen speakers, there's a huge pile of washing to be folded, dishes to be washed, children to be fed and it's blowing a gale outside.
But I don't have any wine in my system. And that, my friends, is a goddam beautiful thing.
Love, Mrs D xxx