Not sure if I've ever been so nervous my entire life .. the piece on me just aired on tele here in NZ.. here's the link to the item On Demand. I've been told that it should work overseas - please let me know if it does or doesn't.
WEIRD. SO UNBELIEVABLY WEIRD TO BE GOING SO WIDELY PUBLIC.
But it's done now. And so now you know that my real first name is Lotta (short for Carlotta, my grandmother was Swedish) and I am married to a bloke called Corin, a journalist who is on the tele here in New Zealand. He reports on politics. He used to host a Breakfast TV programme.. but we moved to our nation's capital 2-ish years ago for him to take up the job at parliament.
His job involves a lot of travel and he's been in America for the past week following our Prime Minister who was visiting the UN and The White House. He got to go inside the Oval Office! He's not back for a couple of days yet so he missed out on our little viewing party here at home. Me and my mum and my boys all put our onesies on and nervously watched me cry and reveal to the nation my drinking problem. I made a tray of treats for us to eat & drink while we watched. I didn't eat much coz my stomach was churning (still is).
So anyway.. now heaps more people know about me and my drinking problem and this blog and the wonderful online recovery community that has been my lifeline and secret weapon since I took away the wine. And yeah, I've revealed a 'nasty secret'. But do you know what I'm really revealing?
My face is the face of long-term recovery. Living in recovery means I haven't touched alcohol for almost three years. Living in recovery means I am free from my alcohol addiction. Living in recovery means I am sober and I am very happy.
And getting sober is not a death sentence! It's not the end of fun! I never touch alcohol ever and it's totally fine! It's better than fine actually. It's fascinating and real and raw and lovely and honest and authentic and just bloody marvelous.
My book will be out soon. It's called 'Mrs D Is Going Without' (of course!). It's not a drinking memoir, it's a recovery memoir. Yes it talks about my final drinking days, but mostly it talks about what happened after I put down the wine and all the stuff that was going on outside of this blog. What I learned about myself, what I learned about alcohol, and the community that built up around this blog was all so unexpected and fascinating. That's what I've written about. The book will be out in stores down this part of the world from next Friday. You can pre-order it here or here or here and they'll send it to you anywhere in the world as soon as it's released. Or you can get an e-version quicker on Amazon.
I'm being inundated with emails and texts and messages and everyone I mean EVERYONE is being super lovely. My heart is bursting. Sobriety rocks. That is all. Over and out. Goodnight.
Love, Mrs D xxx