I was talking to a neighbor, who I've always suspected to be a boozer, and I was telling her the amazing story of our last-minute house sale (YES!) and for some reason I then told her that I'd given up the booze, that I used to be a really hard-out wine drinker but that I'd kicked it to the curb about 9 months ago. She was so funny, she honestly seemed more interested and impressed with the fact that I'd been a fellow drinker and even said 'I wish I'd known I would have been over more often'!!! Like dude, I've just told you I've given it up because it was getting way too heavy...and you're regretting that you'd never shared in the habit with me??!! How funny people are.
I could sense she thought I'd turned boring, and that was a good experience for me to have in that moment, to be aware that she thought I was now boring. Because there will be people I come across now that will consider me a boring teetotaler. And they'll be the boozers.
Boozers will always think I'm boring. That I'm just going to have to accept. In a boozers eye I will be a boring non-drinker. I know this because I used to think all non-drinkers were boring nerds, but as we all know, I was a boozer.
Just after our house sold (YES!) when we were chatting to the buyers (just as excited as we were) the Real Estate agents broke out the bubbles for everyone to celebrate. I had to quickly say 'not for me thanks' which she didn't really hear so I had to repeat it, and everyone sort of laughed (it was a very emotionally heightened situation) and I didn't explain or anything, just said 'not for me' again and she went and filled my flute with water. It didn't matter. And I didn't give a shit. I don't want to be a drinker. I'm happy being a non-drinker. I can remember being that boozer lady and I so don't want to be her again. I far prefer how I feel about myself now.
Mr D commented yesterday that I'm such a changed woman. He was being lovely saying things like 'vibrant' and 'alive'. I said to him isn't it amazing how I just totally changed my life? Thank god I did. If I hadn't changed my drinking habit I would never have realised what I could become - a much more alert and in-control version of myself. Sorry if that sounds a bit self-satisfied. I think I'm still in a hyper-alert state with all that is going on.
Anyway, after the house-sale papers were signed (YES!) I popped off to the mall to buy a big suitcase so I can start packing up the house now. I decided on a whim that in lieu of celebratory champagne I would buy myself something lovely to wear. So I did. Two things actually. Hence the post title.....!
Love, Mrs D xxx