Crazy busy sober weekend. Hosted a dinner party here on Friday night with a chef friend taking over my kitchen and doing all the cooking. It was with a big group of old friends and at one stage I was laughing so hard my cheeks hurt and my mascara was running.
I better be honest and say there was a point at the table later on after pudding where I was just feeling kind of ... well .. sober I guess. But that's because I was, and am, always. Sober me. That's the reality. But overall it was a great fun night and I tried very hard to appreciate my together state when I cleaned my makeup off at the end of the night and put on night cream (terribly grown up).
Next day up bright and early (couldn't have done that with a hangover!) to take the boys down to the waterfront to ride their scooters. I love waking up without a hangover and it always makes up for that slightly flat feeling I have in the evening when I am hit with the soberness of everything. I read somewhere that you never wake up regretting not drinking the night before, and that is so true.
Then Saturday night we went out to a dinner at someone else's house! Another great night, this time meeting people I didn't know before. I am so much more comfortable meeting people when I'm sober all night. I feel so much more together and happy chatting away with my wits about me (and not worrying that anyone is watching me hit the wines hard like I used to).
Our little guy is 3 today. I'm so happy for him and the other boys that their mum is no longer a boozer. But I'm also pleased that Mr D can model moderate drinking. Booze will be a big part of their lives, living as we do in an alcohol-soaked world, so they need to see that it can be enjoyed by some and handled well. In addition to knowing that for some people (like their mum) it's very hard to control and for those people it's better to remove it completely.
Oh how that makes everything seem so easy! If only it were. For today at least, it is. I'm sure some more gritty phases will come.
Love, Mrs D xxx