... and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and whine and moan and aarrrggghhhhhhh!!!!!!
That's all I goddam bloody hell do! Quit bloody whining and moaning would ya! Blah blah blah-d-blah.
Right. Good. Now I've got that out of my system I can move on.
I love waking up every morning. I honestly do. I love waking up with no guilt, no dry horrors, no need for panadol, no distractions from what's actually in front of me. I've started feeling way more grateful for the fact that I wake up every morning after a good sleep with no sicky feeling in my guts and ready to start the day.
Ok so sometimes that day contains a bit of stress or grumpiness, but it's not overwhelming. I think I have this belief that to feel grumpy or stressed, and certainly to act to others (my children or husband) like I'm grumpy or stressed, is a FAILURE. I have this stupid long-held belief that it is a FAILURE (use of caps for emphasis, is that too much?!) to be a grump or snappy or shitty. That I am FAILING (that's the last use of caps I promise) if I am anything but cheery and sunny all the time. Well how stupid and dumb is that? I'm going to try harder to stop feeling like that. I mean, I'm also going to try harder to control those moods and not let them 'run away' on me (i.e. get way too shitty or grumpy) but if I do act like that sometimes - well that's just life.
Now, better get studying, I've got a child-free day and should be working on my thesis!
Love, Mrs D xxx
I love this idea. I love it so much I may have to steal it!
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I loooovvvve it. When I first read star chart, I thought you meant an astrological chart to guide you...and I thought that was just plain silly. Star reward chart though --- brilliant. Taught my son to use the potty...could train my brain to live a better, healthier life. Good luck with your plan.
ReplyDeleteGood luck Mrs D. Lovely idea. But dont try too hard all the time. We are all full complicated humans and its ok - sometimes - to show the shit along with the shine. The people who love us love us for our vulnerability, not just our perfection.
ReplyDeleteHey I might try that too. Not this week though, grumpy as a grumpy thing; After a year of menopausal flushes and sweats . . . I've now begun my periods again!! O my, the best of both worlds ;-)
ReplyDeleteLet us know how it goes, enjoyed your post x
love this chart idea, works so great for behavior modification in kids, so why not adults? my chart would be to try to have 5 out of 7 days with: exercise, eating well, getting enough sleep, followed by 7 out of 7 days of being kind to my husband, and no alcohol ...
ReplyDeleteAt the risk of sounding lecture-y, which I don't want to do, have you thought about starting a gratitude journal? Just a simple list each night when you get into bed, put it down on paper, can be anything. Mine has really helped me be more patient and less uptight.
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