A very nice chappy has suggested that I put a sobriety counter on my blog as an extra help. Is it a help? I've never wanted to count because I just want to BE sober. Like casually forever sober. But truth is I'm bloody early days. Very early days. In fact it was a shock when I just went and found a sobriety counter online (which for some reason I couldn't get to work on my blog) and I was only 1 month and 12 days.
ONE MONTH AND TWELVE BLOODY DAYS!!!!!!
I've been bandying around "2 1/2" months coz I'm kind of counting August as I went on the wagon for the month of August (as I would periodically do) and then had 5 days of heavy drinking before giving up for good on Sept 6th (when I started writing this blog).
So yeah. Bloody early days. A pathetic number of days. Found that quite deflating. I wish I was 2 years sober.
Then this morning I was counting units of a different kind. Bottles of wine. Went to the gym to get a new fitness programme and was chatting to the lovely (young) girl who was taking me through my new plan. I was telling her that I wanted to lose some weight so was upping my cardio exercises, but that I knew that I had to cut down on my food intake too. She then asked if I drank and I said "no I've given it up" and after she picked her jaw up off the floor (being a non-drinker is not the done thing in this country) she asked me how many bottles of wine I used to drink in a week.
I thought for a second and said "4 or 5" at which she raised her eyebrows like "yeah that's a lot" and I swiftly moved the conversation back to food.
But how many bottles of wine would I drink in a week? I think I'll work this out as an extra reminder for why I've stopped. I'll try to work out an honest pattern for my wine drinking in a 'heavy' phase.
Sunday: Probably hung over from Saturday. Could possibly not drink at all. But perhaps get one bottle and have half of it. Weekly total = half a bottle.
Monday: No hangover so get 1 bottle and drink it. Weekly total = One and a half bottles.
Tuesday: Hungover. Get a bottle and drink half. Weekly total = Two bottles.
Wednesday: Non hangover day. Supermarket day. Buy 2 bottles, drink 1 and a quarter bottles. Weekly total = 3 1/4 bottles.
Thursday: Very Hungover. Get a bottle perhaps have 2 glasses. Weekly total = 4 bottles (?? ish, it's getting hard to total).
Friday: It's Friday!!!!!! Drink at least a bottle and a half of wine. Weekly total = 5 1/2 bottles.
Saturday: Hungover. But who cares?!! It's Saturday! Drink at least another bottle and a half of wine. Weekly total = 7 bottles.
Seven bottles of wine in one week. Perhaps I will start counting my sobriety days after all. Must find a gadget that works..
Love, Mrs D xxx