I feel flat (emotionally) and fat (physically) today. I'm not fat technically speaking by the way, but I am heavier than I should be and could definitely lose some weight.
I think obsessing about weight is boring, but how you feel about yourself mentally often manifests itself in how you feel about yourself physically doesn't it? If I'm feeling low I usually have an inner voice saying 'you're fat and ugly' but if I'm feeling great I think I look just fine!
It's the weekend and I did my usual Friday morning treaty shop. Fresh flowers, some nibbles for Friday evening (feta dip, pita bread and some pistachio nuts), plus a bottle of expensive red wine and some beer for Mr D.
Am I tempted to drink that? No I'm not. Not in the slightest. But I am feeling flat. And fat. So it must be having an impact somewhere.
On a brighter note, to remind myself how much better I feel not drinking I want to say how happy I am every night when I climb into bed sober. I love getting in to bed at night without being full of wine. I feel so happy at that point. It's even better than waking up without a hangover and the guilts.
So that's a bright note to end on.
Love, Mrs D xxx