I shouldn't really be blogging.. I've got a big job ahead of me now as I've just got my manuscript back from the publishers with the copy-editors notes in it and there's a lot to look over and accept/reject/change/add…
Among the notes was this funny quote "The copyedit was straightforward and was mostly about tidying up the text and strengthening/retaining your narrative voice. I removed one instance of ‘shitballs’ that was very close to a previous use—I think the term has more impact when used sparingly!"
Ha ha ha SHITBALLS!!!!!! I like shitballs. And I like amazeballs too. Maybe I'm just trying to be hip with the kids (which for a lumpy 42-year-old mother of three is rather sad) but sometimes you need a good exclamation word and Fuck is just too much.
Anyway I'm happy to report that I've settled back into a happy sober place not caring in the slightest that I don't touch alcohol ever. I think we are going to organise a house-warming party and I'll go about it just as I would if I were still boozing. This means setting up a bar area and making sure the music is good and the food is yummy and the atmosphere is fun and people feel welcome .. I'll pour drinks merrily and act as I would before I got sober except I'll just quietly be not pouring any brain-bending liquid down my own throat.
Is that weird? I don't care. I want the fun to continue and it's up to me to make that happen.. just as it's up to me to not be dysfunctionally boozing like I used to.
It was rubbish day in our new street yesterday and there were a few recycling bins around our new house that were overflowing with wine bottles. I mean OVERFLOWING with wine bottles. Just like ours used to be all the time.
I have to admit it made me wonder about the owner of the bin and if they were happy drinking all that piss all the time. Maybe they are. Maybe they're not. But looking at that bin and remembering that ours overflowed like for years made me feel really happy and relieved that that is not my reality any more.
See - my happy sober place has returned!!!!!!!
Love, Mrs D xxx