Lots of lovely comments.. lots of positive vibes.. lots of wonderment and bravery and appreciation and general gorgeousness coming from around this wonderful community of ours we call the sober blogging world.
COMMUNITY. That's what it's all about people. Us helping each other. The circular world. I remember the first time I left a comment back on someone else's blog.. a person who had just given me my first ever comment.. and it was like a double whammy of support. Being supported and supportive. Looking outward and helping others as much as we are looking inward and helping ourselves. It's vital and so very cool.
I got a snippy comment on my last post which did feel a bit like a slap in the face. It said something like "self-satisfied much? Look at you with your perfect life." Ouch. I deleted it because this is my blog and I don't want snippy negativity here but obviously someone felt I'd come over a bit arrogant.
But then I thought that honestly my last post did have smug overtones (me in my fringed kimono living my fabulous life) so fair enough (sorta).
And then I thought.. who is this person that is visiting a blog written about someone who has gotten sober, reacting badly to them feeling sober-tastic and feeling the need to leave a snippy comment pulling them down? It might be a person who is actually really lovely and kind and nice but is feeling like utter shit because alcohol has it's grips in so deep and they feel so bad about themselves they don't want to bask in the glow of someone else's (temporary) sober glory. I dunno.
I do know living sober is FUCKING HARD sometimes so when I'm feeling great and on a high I want to milk that feeling for all it's worth THANK YOU VERY MUCH!! (That's my defensiveness coming out.)
And now I'm off to put the washing in the dryer, go take the library books back and pay the car registration and buy some tracing paper for my 9-year old. Me and my fabulous life.
It's not fabulous all the time. Sometimes it's mundane. Sometimes it's gritty, glum and flat. And sometimes it's upbeat and fun. The only thing it constantly is, is sober. And that is a good thing.
Love, Mrs D xxx