Still feeling good, strong, amazing about my decision to remove alcohol from my life. Haven't had a single pull to drink. Mr D is away for work and there's a full bottle of sav in the fridge and some red in the pantry and I didn't even think about it.
I feel like I've been working up to this point for a few years now. Enough of the mindless pouring of booze down my throat. Heading in a stupid and very very serious direction with my drinking. Where did I think it was going to end up? What sort of life path are you on if you are pouring so much wine down your throat?
I was a 2nd day drinker. Have a binge, then have a hangover, so the second day is a light one, just 1-3 wines. Then the next day, no big hangover so have a binge again! How many hours have I spent thinking about booze, working to obtain it. Drinking it - being impaired by it. And then recovering from it. How many many hours spent on that.
So now, I have a sober brain and a sober life facing me. Life, here I am. That's the raw feeling I suppose. But what can I achieve now? Great things!
Note to self: get new hobby.
Love, Mrs D xxx
Exactly...the endless thinking thinking thinking about alcohol. You must feel so free!
ReplyDeleteIdentify with this post absolutely, I was also a 2nd day drinker and boy if I had a day off - that really meant I had earnt the extra. Totally too much time spent thinking and planning around my drinking. And have been aware of too many mindless booze drinking sessions. I ended up sleeping in my car in a central auckland car park because I had planned around the drinking instead of my own safety!!! Insane.
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