I'm kind of snippy and tense, which is a real bummer. I thought I'd be feeling happier! Lighter! Free! I've got no hangovers, no guilt and I'm sleeping right through every night (as opposed to my alcohol insomnia). So why am I so tense? I was snippy to Mr D last night, and yelled at my Big Guy this morning because he was fighting with me over having to do his spelling practice. Jeez I just wish I could lighten up. I need to shrug my shoulders and try to smooth myself out. I should be feeling great!
It's one week since my final binge, and I'm so aware that it's early early days yet. But I haven't wanted a drink at all and don't feel nervous about any upcoming weekends or events. I feel like I never want to pour myself another glass of wine and go back down that track. But I'm nervous because I just know it can't be this easy.
Big deep breath in .. woosh, breath out. In, out. In, out....
Love, Mrs D xxx