I can feel a squeeze coming on my brain, just a slight tightening of my thoughts, and my strength and resolve to not drink alcohol any more. I can feel the little voice inside flexing it's muscles again. Really? Never again?
Yes never again. It stopped being fun. The fantasy idea of drinking - just the one or two! - doesn't exist for me any more. Nothing will be lost, or less fun. So much will be gained. Think I have to work really really hard on this. Exercise my brain like it is a muscle I lift weights for.
I wish I had some more books, or blogs or something I could follow that worked for me and how I am trying to do this. But I know I am strong enough and I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.
Love, Mrs D xxx