Last night was a bit of a test. The in-laws came over for an early pizza supper (home-made pizzas I might add, made by MOI!) .. they bought beer and wine. Mr D and Mr D senior had a few beers, Mrs D senior had a couple of wines, Mr D also had a few wines after his beers (he seems to drink more when I'm not drinking. I think he used to hold back so that someone was in control and also because I would get grumpy if he drank too much of the wine!). Anyhow I just didn't drink and didn't say anything about it and no-one made any comments. But there's no flies on Mrs D senior and I'm sure she would have noticed. She probably thinks I'm pregnant.
At one point Mr D asked me quietly in the kitchen how I was and I said "Ok, but I feel quite uptight". He gave me a big snuggle and some lovely kisses and I felt much better and lighter after that and was able to be in a better mood.
Later in bed (I love it when I get into bed now and have had no wine!) he told me that it wasn't even noticeable that I was feeling uptight. I thought I was more snappy with the kids (well the Middle Dude did break Big Guy's new glasses, that pissed me off) but he said I was fine really.
I do feel more uptight on an evening like last night because..
1) I'm not relaxing with the alcohol in my system
2) I'm not part of the 'fun' group having a few drinks
3) I'm having to mentally process abstaining from something 'fun' so I'm concentrating on those serious thoughts = serious mood
Hopefully 2) and 3) won't apply for ever because I won't have to think about abstaining so much, I'll just automatically do it, and well as for 2) readers of this blog will know (ha ha! That's a joke! I have no readers!!) it wasn't fun any more for me anyway.
Quick point here. Mr and Mrs D senior got to about 3 units of alcohol and stopped. They just stopped! They'd had enough at that point. How very functional! Had the fun lift and then stopped. If only I could do that. I would have been pouring wines number 5 & 6 as they were getting ready to leave round 7.30pm. Probably had wines 7 & 8 before bed.
Anyway, back to my points. Number 1). Well my lovely Mr D had a good idea. Why don't I have a Red Bull or some other horrible drink I would never normally touch, but one that would give me that energy lift at the start of a drinking session. So I will try that next time I think.
And I need to think about how and when I am going to annouce to people what I am doing. Why am I hesitating to do that?
Love, Mrs D xxx